So we have a new baby at our house. YAY!

Another C-section, but honestly I am just grateful that he is here and that I am not pregnant any more. I sure dislike being hugely pregnant.

And now he is out of the “I must wake up ever two hours at night” stage and starting to sleep better at night. Although he did have a growth spurt a couple of days ago and we did some every two hour feeding again. He’ll even out especially.

I hate breastfeeding. Seriously. Not my favorite. I do it because it is cheaper than formula. WAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYY cheaper. I formula feed my first one after the first two months, and it got really expensive really fast. I weened as early as I possibly could to cut back on those costs. Eekk.

A couple of weeks ago I went to my Dr’s for the post op check up and of course they weighed me as part of the process.

I thought the scale was broken.

I had gained thirty-five pounds. THIRTY-FIVE POUNDS PEOPLE. So you have to take off five pounds because you always weight 5 pounds more at the doctors office, so 30 pounds. I never gained that much with my other two, the most being about 20lbs. My last pregnancy I only gained 10 pounds. I didn’t even wear my bigger ‘in-between’ clothes. Those same in-between’ clothes are now too small. Barley, but still. Much sobbing and tears all around.

So I’m officially on a diet. And I am working out again. Actually working out feels really good right now. It really helps with my anxiety/depression and helps me manage my day without losing my temper.

I want to document my experience. Just for posterity’s sake.

Here is my before pic:

Before Pic

Check me out! I don’t have a full length mirror, so we are going to have to make do. Please note that I don’t dress like that to work out. Usually I am in my pajamas of a baggy t-shirt and basketball shorts.

I have been working out for a couple of weeks by this point so we’ll just imagine what I looked like before.


I am using a calorie counter app. I am not religious about it, I don’t like to document every single thing I eat. I did do that for a week or so at the beginning just to give me a good idea of how much I should eat. Now I use it just to check how many calories something is if I am eating out or at a friends.

My real goal is to eat as much fruit and veggies (fresh) as possible. We eat salad for sides a lot right now. Also my snacks are almost exclusively fruit or veggies with protien (like apples and peanut butter or veggies and humus). If I am hungry and don’t want to eat anything healthy (say all I want is a cookie or a giant slice of cake) I drink herbal tea or Choffy to help with the cravings. I put a bit of honey in it and it seems to help. Sometimes, if I can get away with it, that is my snack.

I am breastfeeding, so I would rather over eat a little than under eat. I really do NOT want to lose my breast milk. I have also been eating a lot of oatmeal and flax seeds to help keep my production up. Also I drink an absurd amount of water every day.


We have Daily Burn on our Roku right now. I like it because for about 10 dollars a month you can get a large variety of workouts streamed directly to your TV. And they are not easy work outs (but they have beginner style work outs too). You can also customize your work out so you can get a new video up dated on your home page everyday.

I thinks gyms work too, but we really can’t afford the gyms in our neighborhood. They also do not have any childcare facilities available, and with my husbands schedule that just doesn’t work.

You can get a bunch of at home workouts on Pinterest which is what I do when I travel. Check out my Pinterest board “Fitness” for some suggestions. Daily Burn also has an app for your phone or tablet, so you can do those work outs when you travel.

The thing I DON’T like about Daily Burn is sometimes they have you using special equipment, like a variety of weights, balls and other equipment. I usually just work around them, but I have bought some weights. That is just a warning. They do have a bunch of body weight only exercises, so you have options.

I’ll keep updating my blog with my progress and hopefully some yummy, healthier recipes.

Here is my recipe for humus that I found on Pinterest, then tweaked:

Ranch Humus

1 can garbanzo beans

1/3 cup non-fat plain greek yogurt

1 tsp dried parsley

1/2 tsp dried granulated garlic

1/4 tsp salt

1/2 tsp dried dill

1/2 tsp dried onion powder

Drain and rinse the garbanzo beans. Add all ingredients to a food processor and mix until a smooth paste.

This is a great substitute for dipping veggies instead of ranch dressing. My kids love it too!


10 things I LOVE about being a Stay at Home Mom

It seems like I have read a lot of blogs lately about moms complaining about staying at home with their kids or wishing that they had worked instead of being a SAHM. I couldn’t disagree more.

Every job I have had I have been completely replaceable. Mind you someone might not do as good a job as me (or might be way better) but in the end they could find some one to fill my shoes.

Not with being a mom.

Ever since I was a kid I wanted to be a SAHM just like my mom. Is it easy? No. And in a way, yes. Here are my top ten reasons.

10. No one can replace mom in my kids eyes. (see blurb above) They love me absolutely. Even when I mess up.

9. The smile on my son’s face when he rushes me demanding a hug. If I was at work all day, I would miss so much of that love and joy on his face.

8. Left over energy. I don’t have to give my kids my left over energy after being at a hard job all day. I can stop what I’m doing whenever I want (or just about) and play games with my sons or read books or just snuggle for a while.

7. Time with my boys. This is kind of like the last one, but I wanted to share a story. The other day my oldest was rocking himself in a rocking chair while me and his brother finished breakfast. I wasn’t really paying attention, I am really bad at reading a book while I eat (I’m trying to change that, meals are the best time to chat with my boys). Suddenly my oldest pipped up, “Mom I need to snuggle”. I needed to shower and I had a butt-load of chores to do, but those could wait for a moment. I snuggled up my leggy little sweet 4 year old and we snuggled for 15 minutes or so. Of course his little brother had to get in that action, so I ended up (9 months pregnant) with two adorable little boys on my lap. Heaven.

6. Discipline. I get to decided how and when to discipline my children. I also know what is more effective that if I spent most of my time away. The other day my oldest got out a coin jar (which he isn’t supposed to get), dumped out the coin jar and the jar was broken. I was upset because my grandmother had given me that beautiful blue glass jar and I had to throw it out. I will admit I kind of snapped at my son and made him clean up the coins by himself, but afterwords we had a wonderful discussion about saying “I’m Sorry” and what action we can do to make it better. I also had a moment where I had to say your forgiven (even though I was still pretty mad) because my little boy needed to hear it.

5. Teaching moments. I get to stop and teach my little boys occasionally through out the day. BEST EVER when they learn something new. I also get to teach them about God and Jesus Christ throughout the day, which helps keep God in our home.

4. I learn a lot from my children. I will be in a situation where I am trying to teach my boys something and I will learn something new. For example I was making my son do something he thought was hard the other day (taking the sheets off his bed….) he was bawling and throwing a fit, but I remained firm (he could do it. He did it all the time when I didn’t want him too). Afterwards we snuggled up on my bed and wiped away the tears. I said, “Sweetie, sometimes I ask you to do hard things because I know you can do them”. I was struck the profoundness of that statement. I’m pretty sure God does that to me!

3. Sick days. Seriously. I don’t have to scramble for a baby sitter or try to figure out what to do for work because I have to stay home with a sick kid. Instead we just get to snuggle up on the couch and watch movies or take naps. It is the BEST (have I mentioned I am an introvert??)

2. No set schedules. Some days we decide that we want to go on a walk. Other days we decide to go to the library. Or to the store. Or to the pool. But if we don’t want to go (or someone is throwing a major fit) we can stay home and play or read books.

1. I get to watch my kids grow up.  I get to watch every new mile stone as it happens. My 4 year old figured out how to put his coat on all by himself (including zipping it up) and it makes a momma proud. My two year old keeps learning new words and figuring out new ways to cause destruction. Gotta love it.

Am I condemning Mom’s who work? Good heavens no. Women work for various reasons, but don’t make what the public thinks of you one of them. You don’t have to achieve glory in the work place to be accepted. Seriously.

Also, there are women who HAVE to work to help or completely support their families. My MIL worked because of childhood trauma that she endured. It was torture for her to be trapped at home all day. There are lots of reasons why women work, and I’m not coming down on them.

I just wanted to share with you the reasons I love to stay at home.

PS, I am an introvert who loves to write (something I can easily do at home) so this suits me down to the ground. I also enjoy managing a household and cooking.

There are things that are hard for me. Child development. I really struggle with that, especially with my oldest. I’m never sure what I’m supposed to expect from him, but I did get some wonderful help from a local agency. I have a much better relationship with my oldest now. It also helps that he is in a wonderful preschool that helps me see what is normal or what is something I need to work on.

I do struggle with depression and anxiety, so some days are really hard.

I’m not a perfect mom. I’m still learning, every day. But I love to be at home with my kids. When I am having a bad day with depression, my two year old demands hugs with his arms wide open and a smile from cheek to cheek. How can you feel crappy after that??

Baked Eggplant Parmesan – Pregnancy Woes, cont.

Is this pregnancy OVER yet???

Not really, but kind of. I get really, REALLY big when I am pregnant. I’m already big and I still have 3 months to go. Sigh…

All of the sudden my pregnant body decided that meat was out of the question.

We were working on Potty training the 2yr old, when I decided, as a reward, we would go out to Red Robin (hubby was out of town). I got my very favorite Bleu Cheese burger, with BBQ sauce and onion straws. I ate the whole thing and most of my fries. (no comments on how I’m not supposed to eat bleu cheese whilst pregnant. I know)

We left shortly after because the 4 yr old and the 2 yr old were no longer full, and determined to make a mess of Red Robin. Those looks of “Oh how cute” from the other customers were about to change to “Why isn’t she controlling her children??”

I paid and got everyone in the car when it hit me. My stomach was rolling and heartburn was kicking in. I was SO SICK.

Ever since then meat has been questionable. I have eaten those breaded chicken patties and breaded chicken tenders, as long as there is a giant salad to go with it. But beef? Getouttahere.

Anything too greasy is out of the question. That includes too much cheese, but I can handle some, as long as I don’t overdo it. Also, overeating will immediately make me sick. And too much sugar.

So now I am forced to eat healthy, which isn’t necessarily bad.

A couple of weeks ago I got two GIANT eggplants in my Bountiful Basket, and I immediately though: Eggplant Parmesan.

I LOVE Eggplant Parmesan. To the point that I almost prefer it (as long as it is done right) to chicken parm. And I like breaded, lightly fried chicken. With all my heart (why can’t we live closer to an Ikea? I need those chicken strips, STAT)

I busily got on Pintrest and found this recipe: 

Normally, I would post it here and add my revisions, but I honestly didn’t do any revisions. This recipe was AWESOME. The only thing I did different is I fried the eggplant instead of baking it. And I didn’t let it stand for an hour. I just used paper towels and pressed as much of the liquid out of the eggplant as I could. It worked just fine.

Also, MAKE THE SAUCE. The gal on the blog said that canned works just as well, and I disagree. That sauce is one of my favorite tomato sauce recipes in the world right now.

So I made this, a huge 9 x 13 pan of it while my husband was still out of town. I ate it for dinner, lunch, dinner, and lunch. My 2 yr old LOVED it so much that he tried to eat all of mine when I wasn’t looking. Luckily I have one child that will eat just about anything.

I just served it with some whole wheat spaghetti that you can get from Costco. YUM. I am craving it right now. I might have to make it again, just for me. And my 2 yr old. We are the only two people who will eat it. Hubby doesn’t like eggplant and the 4 yr old only eats tortilla chips.

Tonight, I am attempting a Eggplant Parmesan SUB. Doesn’t that sound good?

Hubby and the kids are getting Italian Shredded beef on subs instead. Someday meat will sound good again, but for now I am happy with my eggplant.